I wanted to know the baby’s sex before the birth to help me plan, buy clothes and decorate. As the weeks went by I was convinced that I would give birth early. However, despite doing lots of activities up until the end to trigger the birth, my baby held on until full term!
The birth was fairly quick, with contractions that started at 5 a.m. and Liam’s birth at 2.04 p.m. I was impatient to get home from the maternity ward, but the first two days turned out to be difficult, since I was alone and a little lost with my son. After that I had the help of my husband, who stayed at home for the 15 days that followed. When he resumed work, I was much more confident. I set myself fewer limitations and allowed myself to do lots of activities with Liam.
With the benefit of hindsight, I think that I went through a slight period of baby blues in the first weeks. People often say that you fall in love with your baby when it is born… I did not feel this love. I looked after him, I was fond of him but I didn’t have a “special” connection. I didn’t know if it was normal or if I should feel guilty. Very few people talk about this kind of pressure yet so many of us have already felt this kind of guilt.
The months go by quickly with small pleasures, lots of pride and questions! It is amazing to see how quickly my son has grown and it raises questions about the way in which I will educate him. I also thought that I was more patient about things. I have to admit that it really depends on the day and how tired I am feeling!